In my last blog I wrote the following:
"I have tried to find balance for others as well as myself, at times to the detriment of my own health and peace.
I have been a warrior in life, fighting hard for what I believe in and I have retreated into a shell not allowing the world to touch me in any way. Much of my life has been filled with drama and confusion and pain but this is illusory..... it is just a story. I am not that story"
Interestingly in the last couple of weeks, I have allowed myself to subconsciously get caught up in my own story again. The story that it is better to be shy and reserved than confident and powerful. The story that it is better to serve than to lead. The story that happiness can be found in giving all to others and not taking care to look out for the person who matters the most. Namely "Me" or if you are reading this, "You."
You see, what happens when you set store by doing everything for everyone else whilst playing out certain stories in your life, such as those above... people, arguably quite rightly, question your authenticity.
If I am not the shy, reserved person of my story and I come across as powerful but dont stand true in that power, people get mixed messages about who I really am?! The trouble with human nature is that we are then very quick to judge and make assumptions.
My question to you then is, what stories are you playing out in your life because you feel it makes people more comfortable around you?
What stories are you playing out in your life because it feels safe, even though at the same time it might feel uncomfortable?
What parts of you are trying to be authentic but you're still dancing to other people's tunes and not your own?!
If, like me, you put other people's thoughts and feelings before your own. STOP AND THINK. Who is that serving? Is it serving you if people are getting the wrong impression? Is it serving them if they don't believe your actions are genuine?
The greatest gift you can give to yourself and to them is to put yourself first. Trust your instincts and do what you need to do for you. Stand in your Power and your Truth. Be the amazing, authentic human being that you know you can be. In doing so, you show up in your truth and power and they see you for who you truly are and not the story that you think will make them feel comfortable.
That way, everyone wins and noone loses......
Love and blessings,
Nikola xx
