No one can do your life as beautifully as you... no one....

I was sent these words this morning by a very dear friend and someone whom holds a very special place in my heart..... 

..... words that went deep.... that stirred profound emotions...


"I can feel the life force in you and your courageously containing and breathing

it - it is strong and beautiful..."

They underpin that which my life is resting upon at the moment.  The very foundations that shake but steadfastly refuse to be destroyed.

I have conjured up many roles and images for myself over the years and yet here I find myself without having fully embraced a single one of them – at least not for any length of time. And so I breathe, I engage, I feel deep unrest and unease amidst flurries of the most extraordinary excitement, suspense and absolute awe at that which tantalizingly dares to manifest. This has been my reality for a little while now… a tense, turbulent reality scattered with the most precious and deeply moving peace and serenity. To have created the freedom to be anyone, go anywhere, do anything, is so extraordinary in its pressures and gifts.

What if there is something to be said for divine timing?!

What if there is something to be said for creating every moment at free will?!

What if life is a beautiful and profound combination of both…..

My life, at this present moment certainly seems to fall into both those categories.

No one person gives me a harder time than I give myself over where I have got to in life or not got to – according to where I thought I would be – and no one person has the right to judge, just as I have no right to judge anyone else, not even my closest friends, family members and colleagues.

So, why did the above message and sentiment affect me so greatly today….

"I can feel the life force in you and your courageously containing and breathing it - it is strong and beautiful..."

Despite my life not outwardly looking the way I thought it might…. inwardly I am richer than I could ever dare to dream to be and I know that there is so much more to come in both regards. And yes, part of it is creating it every step of the way and part of it is breathing into and trusting the divine timing of my life.

And it seems to me as I ponder the “now” that the flow of life is different for each and every one of us. Each of our journey’s is unique… the timing, learning’s and lessons distinctive and so very special for each one of us. I have tried to force the pace of my life on more than one occasion and more than once have felt the frustration of things not happening as quickly as I would like. And so I have learnt deeply the value of patience and being “present”.

The outer stage that many in the personal development world would have me believe is waiting for me to take action and step up to has actually become the inner stage of holding my strength and integrity, truth and valour.

So, if it is perceived by you or someone else that you are not taking as much action as you could or that your life does not look quite the way you might have imagined….. if you are reading this, then I would hazard a guess that the life force in you is immeasurably strong too. Hold true to the courage of your convictions and stay with your breath for you are also so very strong and beautiful in your authenticity.

My instincts, my gut, my cells repeatedly tell me that I am exactly where I need to be…. the strength that it takes to keep believing that defies even my own logic. To hold the well of love and compassion that I have and desire to share is no easy feat…. trust me. As the tears well up, I am fit to bursting with how much I have to give and to share… my time will come. I believe that with every ounce of my being and I know, I know with absolute certainty that so will yours.

Feel your own life force within you and honor the sanctity of your own instincts and truth…. for no one else can do your life as beautifully as you….. NO ONE.

Your life… your pace…

Love and blessings, always

Nikola